Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Disney World happiness!

Oh Disney truly is the most magical place on earth. I saw a wedding going on at the Grand Floridian which was absolutely beautiful and put me back into the "I want to plan my magical moment" wedding. I of course wanted to change my mind again, which I'm not.

We did everything Magic Kingdom, Hollywood Studios, Epcot, Animal Kingdom, and my personal favorite Harry Potter in Universal Studios.

If you aren't a Harry Potter fan which Mr. C is not, you will still LOVE Harry Potterville. It is so cool and realistic for those of us who know the ins and outs of HP. I already decided I'm doing my classroom HP next year since I'm teaching 6th grade.

So the ride is very technologically advanced but the wait is the best part, walking up and seeing the characters in monograms I'm guessing was so cool. You see the sorting hat, the moving paintings. You have to try BUTTER BEER!!! So good. I wasn't sure what to think but it was so good it is like butterscotch meets cream soda.

Have a magical day!! Yes they really say that all of the time :)

Until next time....

Tuesday, November 22, 2011


So my amazing fabulous grandmother went to heaven. November 4, 2011. I am so lucky to be with her as she took her last breath. I could not be more lucky to take care of someone who has taken care of me for so long. Her funeral was on Wednesday, November 9th and I got to meet some friends and family of hers that I haven't seen/met. So it that sense she made some amazing connections for me and my family even in the after life.

I still have a voicemail she left me and I listen to it every day. I cherish her voice. And hope I can save it some how. Any tips/help on how I can do this??? If I loose it I will be so disappointed.

Until next time....

Happy Thanksgiving - Off to Florida we go!

Mr. C and I are going to Disney for Thanksgiving, which is a much needed vacation for both of us. As you know, my grandmother passed away and I was away for about a month plus he's been working like crazy so we really haven't seen each other this past month.

We are doing all those things that I loved as a child plus going to HARRY POTTER!!! I couldn't be more excited, even if I have to wear a crazy family t-shirt. Oh so exciting. I get to be tigger which is my favorite so I'm getting over it. Such an awesome fashion statement.

I hope everyone has an amazing Thanksgiving! I know I have so much to be thankful for this year. My grandmother is in heaven and in no more pain. I'm happily planning a wedding to the man of my dreams, and we ARE staying within our budget. I love my job, my family, and my friends. Looking forward to catching up on all of your blogs!!!

Until next time....

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Visiting my Grandmother Part 1

I've been gone from blogging for a while. Between school starting, my grandmother, and life in general, I have been behind on the blog writing curve! I apologize. I warn you that this post is gross at times but really capture my heart right now, in the mid-west, helping my grandmother through the last stages of life. I take no offense to not reading it. I actually completely understand. I wish I wasn't experiencing this in my life yet, but When your living it each day, it is easier to just write. At times no matter how hard you try to be tears just form, it's life. I've learned this lesson. This whole experience is making me stronger and even more ready to get married and have children. 

I pray that everyone is doing well.

I arrived on Sunday evening around 10:45pm. I took three flights, visited 4 states and 4 airports. I knew she was going to be bad, but nothing really prepares you for the last stages before death.Especially of someone whom you have loved so dearly. The last time I saw her, which was about a month ago, would just take occasional naps, Monday, October 31 she was up for maybe 10 minutes the entire day. It broke my heart to see her so helpless and tired. She would moan she hurt so badly. She is taking a morphine and nausea medication every 2 hours. If she doesn't take the nausea medication she literally pukes poop. It is the most horrifying thing to observe someone's body not working properly there is absolutely nothing that you can do. All she ate a cup of peaches and a cup of blackberry pie with milk that was all, all day. With some water here and there.

I give her credit thought she tries extremely hard to be in good spirits but I imagine it is probably the hardest thing she does each day. You try massages, giving her whatever she wants to comfort her. Last night was an extremely bad night. She threw up numerous times - green colored poop this time. She has started hallucinating from the morphine I am assuming. She thought I went to the world series, asked me why I'm not married yet - I should have babies by now - I would be a good mother. She went to use the bathroom last night and thought the curtains were toilet paper. She got extremely upset that we couldn't get her to bed fast enough after using the bathroom. You just aren't sure what to do.

Luckily she still knows who we are but I don't imagine this will last very long. She received flowers yesterday that we put bedside to hopefully give her something pretty to look at the few moments that she is awake. We have decided that since she is so quiet and tries to hard to be strong we are putting her on a medication regiment, making her take her two medications every 2 hours instead of letting her decide if she wants them. We installed a baby monitor but she is so quiet sometimes you don't hear her especially when you sleep.

I am at that point, where I pray to God regularly that he would just take her. It sounds horrible to say out loud but if you saw what I have seen, you wouldn't want her to be dealing with this either. Someone so special, loving, caring, and amazing shouldn't be so miserable and unhappy. 

My grandma was having anxiety over what she would wear to her own funeral. So my aunt asked her what she wanted to wear and jewelry she would want to wear. So we washed it, ironed it, and laid out her jewelry.It is so hard to believe that in 2 short months we are at this place. A woman who has previously had such great health is doing so poorly now. 

My grandfather is just beside himself, he doesn't know what to do with himself once she passes. He has begged my Aunt/Uncle who live near them to allow him to move in with them, he would pay them. Which we all have just wondered why he is so quick to give up his independence.

The entire week is extremely emotionally draining and tiring. My grandmother has said a million times she hates me seeing her this way. I don't care! I'm happy to have the time with her and be able to help her through this difficult and trying time.

Until next time....