Friday, April 27, 2012

Interesting things happen

I finally decided to do something! I went out with a girl friend to her school's auction, last week on Friday night. What an awesome time I had. It was great to talk to people and forget about all of the craziness that I know call life. I did feel a little guilty to be having so much fun. A part of me feels like I should be spending more time at home in mourning. But at the end of the day, I do know that I am still here and have to move forward with life eventually.

The even weirder part is, that I feel totally horrible about, I cannot even believe I am saying this, a boy - okay gentleman - introduced himself to me, we chatted for a long time that evening. We exchanged business cards - trying to be as informal as possible. My friend had told everyone there my story, so they were all extremely friendly and understanding. And we have been emailing back and forth all week long. He asked me if I wanted to grab lunch with him this week - very non-date like. I haven't decided on an answer.

The friend who took me to the auction is my best friend in the world. So I was talking to her about this exchange and as she said, why are you feeling guilty or weird, you are going to lunch, not getting married. And I realized how true that really was, and that it is okay to meet new people, that doesn't mean I have to date them, just put myself out there to experience life again. Almost two months in your house can drive a woman a little nutty. 

I am feeling it is a bit soon, but as I know, life is really short. I don't want to miss out on it. I'm excited to be reading through your blogs again, I've been really into it and smiling as I read them instead of crying. A new leaf has been turned over. I'm very excited to see where life takes me. I will definitely keep you posted.

Until next time....

Tuesday, April 10, 2012


Thank you for all of the continued support. The blogging world has been amazing to me! I really appreciate all of your kind words, prayers, and thoughts. It has been a month and 5 days since he passed. I've been going to church, trying to go to work, and slowly figuring out life in this new path.  

Update on life:

  • House - had it packed up and put in storage, is currently on the market (Felt this was a good compromise, I can go through it when I'm ready)
  • His Family - has helped with the money side of this whole thing, which has been a huge relief
  • Seeing someone - this has been such a blessing. I'm working through my anger, sadness, and resentment. I know it is going to be a long process
  • Blogging - I have realized through this all that I am stronger than I have given myself credit. I love the quote "You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have." It is my motto right now. Even though this tragedy happened, I know deep down even though every day I don't feel it that God has a plan for my life and I have to be patient. I'm going to start blogging again next month about anything/everything - I'm still determining what my blog will turn into, so stay tuned - I have something to be excited about.

Until next time....

~ Future Mrs. Unknown ~